We shall dance under the stars...: 2012

Tuesday, 28 August 2012

"Sometimes I feel like there’s a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean. The moon tonight, there’s a circle around it. Sign of trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night, wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing . . . I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for."

Friday, 3 August 2012

Maybe living in boston ....

I have always wanted to, its a city but its just the right amount of it, just perfect for me :)

I could meet a guy like this when i go there that just keeps pursuing me and i live in an apartment like this

the kitchen were all the italain magic happens

the living room that i coze into when i come from work

I want to have long brown hair and be thinner and more confident, and i want my teeth to be fixed :) i want the most complex and fun group friends and i want to be happy.

And i might move to Boston when i work in London as a clinic psychologist for the NHS , and that would probably pay like £46,266 a year and 3 thousand a month i guess and like £120h for my spending but thats ok i guess if i have roomate i guess its easier for the both of us, but yeah i want to move to boston when im ready...and something tells me that i dont think i will be getting married so i wont to adopt a child and raise it on my own that would be perfect though just like nine lives of cloe king, because i just dont see myself married and i might have boyfriend lik eastwick woman but yeah i just dont see myself with a stable man, my issues and shyness will prob never fade so yeah, they will prob aprouch me and if i really like them then i'll give it a go but other that :/ we'll have to see.....ok i just had a random i thought ...if i were to be that 'mother' i would call my daughter Mia or Indiana Sunset orrrr i would call her Oriana Sunset

I think this is were i'm meant to be :) New england

Bring me in, for as long as it lasts
all i need is your concern, while my dreams burn out
the winters picture on my bedroom window, but you were there, on a long way home
when you came to me with have dead roses and a lopy smile
and i asked god that you'd stay a while
winters here and so is love
i know that this little towns just enough

i ask if you knew me
once in another time
you looked into my eyes ..and just as if he was mine
i whispered that photographs mean nothing unless your close
i need this and winter needs me
thats all there is
lean in take whats left of this stolen kiss

Vermont ~+~+~

I've been thinking, and i want to move to Vermont.New England and become a journalist or psychologist for children in need , i want a warm life were i come to an apartment with nice italian food in my fridge ready and vamp diaries on telly, i want the cutest cat and two best friends and for people to treat me humanly, peace...thats all and to enjoy my uni years and to learn how to love again :)

And no men in my life, just me enjoying myself, nothing else i will call my family, but briefly.I need to live my dream:D and i'm going to make it happen.~here is love and now is here, make it worth and it shall appear.~